I do not take madication and I haven’t been evaluated by a psychiatrist either. I did not experience any physical abuse as well. In fact, that is one reason why I feel even more frustrated. My dad has his own problems and beliefs which are completely different me and my mom. He makes me question if I am actually the bad one. His accusations are mainly targeted at my mom and I grew up with arguments. My mother is not emotionally strong and I am really close to her so I guess I was affected. He has his own problems but he provides well for us. Every time we argue, he would fall back to his “I sacrificed so much for you”. He keeps thinking that all his assumptions are right and it is very hard to have a normal conversation with him. I feel uncomfortable being left alone with him or having to hold a conversation with him. Right now, there are no major issues. But everytime I have negative thoughts, one thing can lead to another, have a lot of past conversations replayed in my head and I end up having an emotional breakdown. I can control it well though so I only allow myself to do it when I am alone. When I am not in the mood, I can get really agitated or over sensitive. If it happens for the whole day, it gets really hard to concentrate and I space out. Controlling my emotions in front of people gets really tiring too. But I am in a position that I cannot stop performing well so I just push myself to get over with the day. I am fine aside from that. I laugh, play, watch movies, do well in school and more as long as whatever negative feelings that I have is forgotten.