sorry you are going through a rough patch, and welcome to the PC forums. please, keep reaching out here, cloudstrife. was it perhaps too soon to take you off of the lamictal? when I'm stable and feeling good and euthymic, I tend to dwell upon not needing so many meds. it's common. congrats on quitting the java and alcohol, too. with all of your symptoms, and kudos for recognizing them, perhaps re-evaluating with your PDoc about your meds would be a good idea and tell them what's been going on. do you see a T regularly? maybe CBT therapy? you can learn some incredible coping skills and mechanisms to help you deal day to day. it also sounds like you were going through a bit of mania. definitely address that with your PDoc. I can totally relate to almost everything you stated. I don't think you are overthinking imo. I genuinely feel you are struggling. I hope everything works out! sending best wishes your way, and please keep updating us here. welcome!