You know when you are feeling so bad, you don't even want to do any self care? That's where I'm at. But, yes, there's some stuff I can do. Let me think. Yesterday I went to a friends house and watched a movie and that helped for a while. I emailed a friend and let her know that I'm suicidal. I'm meeting a different friend for coffee tonight. I'm looking at websites that are for dealing with suicidal thoughts. Another friend suggested journaling so I might do some of that. Laying under my weighted blankets sounds good if I can be cool enough. I think these are some things I can do or am planning to do. I'm trying, just not feeling well at all. I started a new drug (statin) for cholesterol and fish oil prescribed by my GP on Friday. Tuesday my depression spiraled out of control. That's the only thing that has changed. I don't know if statin meds can cause depression stuff or if this is just a coincidence. The paper that comes with the medication didn't list any psychiatric effects. But this is the same feeling I got last time I was on a medication that induced suicidal feelings. It has that same feel to it. Sigh. If I have to, I'll go to the hospital. HUGS Kit