For a very long time, whenever I dealt with my father, I have felt either angry, guilty and/or depressed. Whenever I deal with him, I remember how he treated me in the past, and my first reaction is anger, because I'm afraid he would criticize me. I normally keep the anger to myself and I will be angry for hours, but sometimes I cannot control it and I snap at him. Today I snapped at him, and I have been feeling guilty and depressed all day. I snapped at him because he was texting me for the last few days about a job interview I had, and it irritated me how he kept asking me questions about it. I feel guilty and depressed, but I want him to know when I have something to say, I will say it on my own. Not by interrogation. This is a boundary problem. But again, this is because I am still dependent on him. I am trying to break free from his grip. This is the normal relationship with him. An endless cycle of anger, guilt, and depression. The big problem is that he is still hopeful that I will one day get married and bring him grandchildren, but I don't know how to tell him not to put his hopes high as I don't see this happening. He is living false hopes. He wasted his life on me. His money. His time. Now I feel guilty about all of that because I cannot give him back anything!!! I wish if he threw me on the streets early on. Then I would be angry at him and not feel guilty at all