Hello everyone,

This is my first post here. And it's a long one, so sorry about that.

I am depressed. So depressed that it's hard to just keep going so.etimes. And it all started with my mom. My family was a happy family. Even though we had our fair share of struggles, we were still happy until I was old enough to understand that, we had lots of problems. First of all the problems we're my parents fighting all the time about just little things. And during the fight them involving me and my siblings. It was always like this, them fighting and me and my siblings trying to fix it. But it never worked, because no matter what happens you can't fix something that they don't want to fix.
But somehow for 1 year my parents seemed to get along my senior year in high school and so we thought finally they decided to try. Until one day it all went down hill and my parents started to fight again out of nowhere. From then on my mom started to just blame me for some really stuff and making it into my fault that everything is wrong. She made it I into a disgusting thing that I might be having some gross relationship with my dad. For which she always fighting with my dad and abusing me mentally. It just came out of nowhere that all siblings think she is losing it. Not only that she blames me for all the things going wrong in her life. Telling me that I am nasty and that she shouldn't have given birth to me and what not. And by doing that she literally ruined my relationship with my dad and made it into something that I am afraid to even go near my dad. In all these my siblings have been with me helping. But my mom is such a manipulative and mean and abusive person that I can't even take it anymore. And I can't even leave yet. She is been making things up that doesn't make sense. She don't trust anyone not even her own mom or kids and just hates me. She thinks I am ruining her marriage. I don't k ow what to do or why she is think like that. Why is she suddenly like this to me? And why does she think such nasty stuff? I never even gave her any reason. I had the most loving and innocent relationship with my dad but now his relationship with all my siblings and me is like strangers. She hates my dad too. I need help but don't know what to do. :’(