I COMPLETELY agree with what sarahsweets has already wisely said better than I ever could, @SunriseCoco! Your feelings are valid and I understand why you'd feel discouraged. There's LOTS of work to be done on the Professionals side of things! Still, I'd encourage you to keep looking as well. Someone GOOD for you will turn up soon one way or another, hopefully! Either way, you've said you do not want Advice, and that's ok. We understand. I'm so sorry things have been SO HARD for you! Feel free to PM me ANYTIME if that helps a bit. I'm sure ALL the others will gladly listen as well. Keep venting here if that helps and feel free to share ANYTHING thats' on your mind here or privately with someone you trust! We'll listen to what you have to say and WON'T judge you! THAT'S A PROMISE! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH You, @SunriseCoco and ALL Of Your Loved Ones!