I hope you're doing ok, @Wiggle118! You haven't posted in a while. I COMPLETELY agree with ALL the other wise, wonderful posters. It seems like you're going through A LOT! Give yourself time to grieve the Loss of your Brother. I am DEEPLY SORRY for what youre going through! DEFINITELY leave your boyfriend/girlfriends if he/she's being abusive to you! Also, be proud of yourself for acknowledging and recognizing your sexuality! That's a HUGE step forwards so CONGRATULATIONS! Be proud of yourself! You're AWESOME! I wonder if seeing a GOOD Therapist may be an option for you right now? It seems like that may REALLY help you! Please DO consider it if you'rer not seeing one already! I also agree with ALL the other wise, wonderful posters' advice about opening up to your friends if you feel like it! If they are TRUE Friends, surely they'll stick by your Side and support you when you need it the most! Do NOT be afraid to speak up to the people you trust! Try to avoid comparisons as well as much as you possibly can! You're a unique individual with your OWN qualities so focus on that, ok? Please be kind to yourself! You're fighting a lot so no need to put MORE pressure on yourself, ok? Be kind to yourself and do what you can, one step at the time, like the other wise, wonderful posters have said! You've got this! I hope talking and venting here to me and ALL the wise, wonderful posters here can be of some help! Feel free to PM me ANYTIME you need! I'm sure ALL the others will gladly listen to you as well! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Wiggle118, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! PLEASE KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN LIKE YOU'RE ALREADY WONDERFULLY DOING ALL AND ENTIRELY BY YOURSELF!

Also sending manysafe, warm hugs to YOU, @FearandLoathing40, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! I am DEEPLY SORRY for the Loss of your Friend!