I've been having a suspicion that I've been in some kind of episode with mixed features for the past week or so. I'm diagnosed with bipolar 2 but hopefully you can see that in my signature.

I've definitely been experiencing hypomanic symptoms that aren't particularly elevated (thanks to being medicated and having a semi-regular schedule because my manager likes to give us the same schedules every week if he can help it, probably), but I'd like to get opinions on it.

As far as being hypo goes, I've been at least experiencing being more talkative/pressure to keep talking (especially at work to customers, and I was pretty well a chatterbox on a Discord call I was on Saturday night), some racing thoughts (mostly manifesting in trying to think about a bunch of ideas at once), some increase in goal-directed activity (I've been working on spreadsheets and character sheets for role playing quite a lot in the past week), psychomotor agitation when I wasn't working (lots and lots of tapping and pacing), and impulsivity (I tend to take a lot of caffeine when I'm already hypomanic and I was popping caffeine pills like candy when I keep them to pep myself up while depressed; I ended up taking prescription painkillers recreationally two or three times; spent almost my entire last paycheck on Lush and clothes).

However, the goal-directed activity felt hollow and I wasn't really interested in what I was doing but I just had to do something? I also have been feeling sad and uncomfortable like I had a bunch of pent up energy that for some reason I thought I would be able to relieve by self harming again (almost 20 times in the past week), thinking about hurting myself in more dangerous ways then feeling guilty about thinking and acting on these thoughts, and I've been swinging wildly between not sleeping at all (and not needing the sleep until I get tired at 5 PM and decide to lay down a couple hours later) and sleeping for ridiculously long periods of time (the past four nights I've gone from no sleep to 14 hours to no sleep again to 18 hours). I also went off my meds for four days during this though I'm back on them again and I feel like I'm about to cry right now, but I have to go to work soon. I also have a killer headache.

Anyway, to sum it up, all I've wanted to do the past week is eat grilled cheese sandwiches and listen to Marina's Electra Heart album. Does this sound like a mixed episode or is this just my anxiety messing with basic depression? Or maybe something else?