Please DO take those Antipsychotics, @Isolda van der Meer!!!!! It is for your own good! I understand that it's hard to accept! It is not your fault! Sometimes it just happens, very often to the VERY best of people! You're not "wrong" because you have a Diagnosis and just because other people can't see your Suffering, it doesn't mean that it isn't there! Please be kind to yourself! I understand being scared! But please, PLEASE DO take the Meds as prescribed! They could TRULY save your Life! Are you seeing a Therapist right now? I feel like that's often a FUNDAMENTAL part of getting better! Hopefully an experienced Therapist will be able to help you get through this Journey towards your Healing! Please DO consider it! Feel free to PM me ANYTIME when you need Help and Support! I'll be here for you! THAT'S A PROMISE! So will everyone else! Please reach out for help because yes, there IS help out there! KEEP FIGHTING! Sending many safe, warm hugs to you, @Isolda van der Meer, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! PLEASE KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN LIKE YOU'RE ALREADY WONDERFULLY DOING ALL AND ENTIRELY BY YOURSELF!!!!!