I was at Walmart buying cat treats and I almost bought a utility knife with the thought of self harming. It was three dollars. I put it in my basket. And stopped myself. Put it back. Didn’t buy it.

It’s like I don’t even feel like self harming it’s just in the back of my mind I almost want the option in case I did want to.

Old habits die hard, man. I’ve been struggling with self harm on and off for about ten years or so.