I was supposed to be a boy. Because I'm a girl, I ended the long lineage of our family. My Dad is the last male of his family. My Mom said I ended the insanity, although she doesn't say that anymore because of my MI. I wonder if my Dad would have been happier with a boy. In between my sister and me, my parents did have a boy but he didn't make it. If he would have survived, I wouldn't be here. I've always tried to make it up to him, to make my life worth it because he didn't get to live his.