But anyways.. Be careful with the booooze! Alan Watts died of liver failure from drinking. But he was a great talker.. philospher.. Idk how he did it and how alcohol could have been beneficial.. but I suppose it can induce deep thinking.. like with my dad.. And not just LSD or weed etc..

I'm able to smoke weed now and I know you don't like it because it makes you think TOO deep. But I believe it can be used as an intellectual and creative aid for writing.. then you don't smoke when you're not doing work..

I'll look up some inspirational people, books and podcasts and get my thoughts and notes organized and then I'll ask you for recommendations. I just find it weird to look up philosophers from the renaissance because I've never done that before. It's like history. I only started being interested in it now. My negative symptoms have gotten better enough for me to realize my potential yet not enough to do anything about it and move forward.