ok. im here in Bipolar territory because my actual, "real" diagnosis (if there is such a thing) is 'Schizoaffective," mostly depressed...the manic episode was a doozy, though. anyway...

i get the sense im stuck being a 'mental patient,' albeit a blessed one, in the sense that i get more breathing room than most mental patients 'round here.

so...gratitude. more gratitude, less attitude. good idea. and yet...

im actually more normal now than ever before. despite all that came before, even my iq estimate is up to snuff..more importantly, i can apply my intelligence much better than in years past.

but im labeled. in conservative, red state USA. i dont know that blue state progressive USA would be any better. i might be in a state hospital up north, honestly.

few people care about the 'severely mentally ill.' what ive found as a person in recovery from all that came before...

the community, society as a whole, helps keep us sick...

and now, i cannot move, so im sick indefinitely, by virtue of being labeled.

ugh. i might delete this later.