Sorry you're struggling

I lived in a rural place in the mid south for many years and it was very difficult living there with a mental illness, there definitely is a lot of stigma and small town gossip and crap, it was very hard to fit in there with schizoaffective and also being an outsider or "yankee" from NY. I moved back to NY and it's much easier here, people are more understanding and there are a lot of good services and opportunities for those of us dealing with mental illness