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Originally Posted by Wild Coyote
Hi Blue, I am very concerned about you. 
Is it too hard for you to stop into a store, even a convenience store to grab some food? If so, what do you feel is stopping you? anxiety? If so, what is triggering the anxiety?
For me, some of the criteria as to whether I am well or unwell, depends upon whether or not I am attending to basic needs, like food, etc.
I hope you will take some time out to get feed yourself.
I am interested in how you are doing!  |
No, there are no local convenience stores except a shady gas station, but there are tons of restaurants and takeout places. I don't want to spend a lot of money on food, though. They're all expensive. My therapist said, "Well, you haven't eaten in 48 hours, but imagine if you did eat during those past two days. You 'saved' roughly $10 across two days from not eating, so maybe it's not so bad to spend $10-15 on a meal. It evens out." But I still don't want to spend a ton of money on calorie-laden food that's bad for you. I also hate salads.
The other thing is, it's too crowded here. I don't like being near so many people. Lines are ridiculous and then I'm tortured waiting in line being anxious about germs, something bad happening, sound/sight/smell stimulations, etc.. I really can't tolerate a ton of stimulation. It makes me anxious and overwhelmed. I'm sensitive to everything.
I don't know what I'm going to do. Last time I "got" groceries, my mom actually went shopping by herself and brought them to me because I wouldn't go out to get them. However, my parents are away on a kayaking trip far up in Maine this weekend, so that's a no. I also don't want to rely on them for basic needs b/c I'm in my 20s and should be independent by now.