Please try to buy something, bluebycicle... I know it's hard but please try. It's your own health we're talking about! I'm so sorry your Pdow won't listen to you. Is it possible for you to find another one? Please take good care of yourself, my dear, sweet friend You deserve to Live Well, but first, take care of your basic necessities. Try to eat and sleep at the very least. Listen to your Therapist. I'm worried about you. Please do what you need to do. Can you call someone, ANYONE at all who may come with you or bring you something to eat? Please stay safe, my friend. Your Life is worth it and you know that. THAT'S A PROMISE! THAT'S TRUE AND YOU PERFECTLY KNOW THAT FULLY WELL! Take care! Sending many safe, warm hugs to you, bluebycicle, and ALL of your Loved Ones!