So my pdoc called me about a minute ago (surprise surprise, my therapist told him!). He wants me to come in next Thursday @ 6:15pm for an appt. The assistant was a ***** to me and said, "he has already discussed this with you. You know to take it and why to take it. I will set up an appt for you, but you need to tell us what you expect from us."

First of all, I get talked to for a whole 5 minutes the last time I went off my antipsychotic. Woooow, what a long conversation! I obviously had an eternity to discuss my concerns, didn't I? Shame on me for wasting a whole 5 minutes, 99% of which was him telling me I'm going to die early anyways and not letting me talk.

Second of all, I don't expect anything from either of them, so I don't know why she said, "you need to tell us what you expect from us." I wasn't the one who called or asked for your help! If you want to blame someone, blame my therapist. I never told her to tell anyone. She did it on her own.

I'm going to go to that appt, but I'll probably get told that I'll die before anything bad can happen to me, and then I'll get rushed out the door.

Maybe I'll just print out a bunch of medical research studies showing why I don't want to take an antipsychotic and hand them to my pdoc.