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shakespeare47 · Aug 09, 2019, 01:59 PM

This article has some interesting insights. It's about that inner critic we all have. Long story short- instead of trying to silence that inner critic- see it for what it is- a useful ally. But first, you'll have to learn to distance yourself from the critic.

[QUOTE ] The solution isn't to shut down the critic, suggests research by Ethan Kross, of the University of Michigan's Emotion & Self Control Lab, and his colleague Ozlem Ayduk, of the University of California, Berkeley. It won't work; the voice will return no matter how hard you try to suppress it. Nor is it always effective to analyze the emotions it rouses; that opens you to the risk of ruminating or reliving those feelings and getting stuck in a negative cycle. The best intervention may be to respond to its grievances from a detached perspective—almost as if you were another person. [/QUOTE]

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A New Image

Margot felt sick about the incident at the playground. A moment after arriving with her 2-year-old son, she noticed that a group of teenage bicyclists had unlatched the gate behind her. "Hey!" she said, advancing toward them with hands on hips. "Read the sign! No bikes allowed!" In a flash she found herself exchanging heated words with five or six of the young men while their friends rode in circles around her wide-eyed toddler and other kids. Startled, Margot pulled out her phone and waved it in the air. The teens, who were black, froze and glared at her, a white woman, understanding her implicit threat to call the police, before pedaling toward the exit.
Later, Margot couldn't stop thinking about the shock, fear, and outrage on the boys' faces. Idiot! her inner critic screeched. There are a trillion better ways I could have handled that. Here I am, making the world worse.
Margot's mistake was the sort that could be a springboard for self-growth, says Dolly Chugh, a social psychologist at New York University's Stern School of Business. But if beating herself up over it is all she does, she'll either conclude that she's a bungling bigot at her core or she'll do a 180 and insist that she is a good person and in the right. We tend to think of the self in a simplistic binary way, Chugh says—good or not, honest or not, fair or not. It's a false dichotomy, of course, but many of us hew to it unconsciously.
While most people see their core self as good, some take the opposite tack. When certain individuals are confronted with their unethical misdeeds, like ostracizing others, they begin to see themselves as "bad," or even less than human. To compensate for a mistake and restore a positive self-image, someone like Margot might work to be more socially conscious. But sometimes wrongdoers, especially those who feel powerless or disconnected from others, internalize a bad self-image, according to research by Northwestern University's Maryam Kouchaki and others, and come to believe that they're damaged at the core. When this shift occurs, they're likelier to commit subsequent offenses.
Taking refuge in the "good-person" self-image that most of us have, Chugh says, is not a solution, either: It leaves us with no room to fail, which means no room to grow. All we need is someone or some situation to suggest we're not sufficiently fair, ambitious, responsible, motivated, maternal, paternal, or good, and our defenses go up, leading us to deny, self-justify, deflect, and minimize blame. It's one thing to be self-critical; it's quite another for others to criticize us.
Instead of "good" or "bad," Chugh suggests, we need to start thinking of ourselves as good-ish, a term she introduces in her book, The Person You Mean to Be. Good-ish embraces the idea that the self is error-prone and conflicted, yet strives to be better. It's a rejection of a fixed "good person" image—like the one the inner critic pushes us toward—in favor of the idea that we are a work in progress. Good-ish encourages us to take risks, make mistakes, and, most important, learn from them. The emphasis is not on who you are, but who you're becoming.
To make this shift, Chugh advises that people activate a new, growth-oriented inner voice that stands opposite the self-critic. Elena's inner critic might insist that she's bad at interviews; Margot's might call her stupid. But a growth-oriented voice could respond with self-compassion and forgiveness for a mistake, followed by encouragement: What can you learn from this?
If Margot had channeled a growth-oriented voice instead of her inner critic, the playground episode could have ended in revelation instead of recrimination. That voice would have asked the crucial questions, What were the boys seeing and hearing in the interaction? Why do you think you reacted that way? What was their perspective? In embracing such a mindset, she'd lay the groundwork for self-improvement rather than dwelling on feelings of self-loathing or defensiveness. That voice, Chugh says, could have also asked her what she'd do differently next time; if she would have responded the same way if the boys were white; or whether an African American mother would have done what she did. "Then, hopefully, she'd share her reflections with others," Chugh adds, because that's how personal growth leads to social change.
Wilson calls this sort of incremental self-growth "do good, be good." If we consistently act the part of the person we'd like to be, we can methodically work to overcome the parts of ourselves that hold us back. Say your protective and disapproving critic prevents you from being the sort of person who speaks up more. In the past, Wilson says, it might have told you that you're just not the type, or that you'll come across as attention-seeking and embarrass yourself. A growth-oriented voice, once it's been embraced, can instead pipe up and tell you to seize every opportunity to be heard—to speak up at meetings and parties, to step to the microphone during Q-and-A sessions, or to make small talk on public transportation, even if it initially seems tedious or unpleasant.
"The day will come when you'll think, I guess I am that type sometimes," Wilson says, "and you'll be more likely to speak up next time, and the time after that." Eventually, it will feel more natural to engage people or to share your reflections and insights, because you'll start to see yourself as more outspoken. It begins with a conscious choice to let the growth-oriented voice speak louder than the critic.