I guess this is a question of never having found the right meds or therapy, that will keep me stable for more than a few months at a time. The longest was Tegretol, and it kept me almost normal, but after 5 months, it pooped out. That was back in 2002.

Maybe this is a common problem with us bipolar afflicted? Wanting to make and keep friends, but never having periods of stability long enough to do it - and it's lonely.