I find socializing is exhausting. After an evening out with friends (no alcohol), I need at least 2 hours to wind down before I can even think of going to sleep. I try to be home by 10:00 and that's too early for most people. They call me a party pooper.
I'm an introvert which doesn't help.
Right now I have 1 friend. He has depression and GAD, and his mum was schizophrenic, so he understands me like no one ever has. I'm lucky to have him. My other friend moved away.
But I live alone so I get plenty lonely.
Since my diagnosis I've been in a holding pattern. I lost many friends years ago when I was sick and at my age I have trouble making new ones. I've belonged to a women's organization since 1980, and every member of my chapter deserted me. I was probably too much to deal with at the time. I joined an online group from the same women's organization but it wasn't the same and I quit. I've been staying at home, becoming a hermit.
I'm not one to go to senior centers to play shuffleboard or whatever with strangers. Even the thought of going to church is intimidating. I don't go to bars or clubs. Making new friends is hard.