First - a question - is there a board on here JUST for compulsive overeaters and not the anorexic & bulimics? Just because it's a different issue and things I say could upset some of you. But I need somewhere that I can just SAY it!

If you are bulimic, you probably shouldn't read this.



Anyhoo...uhm...yeah. I am a compulsive over-eater. I don't purge, I just binge.

I was doing SOOO great last year - I lost 40 pounds on Weight Watchers in about 6 months. I got down to the "overweight" category instead of "obese". But then I fell off the wagon and I've gained back 20 pounds very quickly.

More than one person has asked me - seriously - if I'm pregnant. One of those people being my OWN HUSBAND - and when he asked me, he hadn't touched me in over a month. So he KNEW I wasn't preg unless it wasn't his. Why on earth would he say something so rude?

Today, for lunch, I brought a nice little Lean Cuisine and some fruit. But nooo, I didn't eat that. I got in my car, in the rain, and drove to Jack in the Box. Got a big sirloin burger, super-sized fries, Dr Pepper, 3 egg rolls, and a chocolate cake.

I eat in my car, so no one can see me. I hide the evidence, sometimes I'll even stop at a car wash and vacuum out my car after lunch, just so my husband doesn't see the crumbs.

The other night, I ate an entire large Pizza Hut pizza - WHILE sitting on the couch watching "I Can Make You Thin" on TLC. Talk about ironic...

I just want it to STOP!! I consciously tell myself to STOP EATING but then I keep shoveling it in my mouth. It doesn't even taste good. Why do I still eat it???

I hate what I do to myself. I just hate it. I'm a lazy fat slob.