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Originally Posted by Hummingbird1950
Several neighbors in my senior community approached me inquiring if I was ill at our auction. I said I never went to the auction.
So, it was confirmed by numerous neighbors that I was there and yet, in those two hours, I have absolutely no memory of any of that. It wasn't even on my calendar to go.
I was said to sit off in a corner, very stoic, not responding to clapping or smiling. When several neighbors approached me and said hello, I just stared at them blankly. One neighbor said I appeared to be sleep walking, that was her only explanation.
I can't wrap my head around this event and it scares me to think I really could have been there and have absolutely no memory of this. I was looking for a trauma therapist and almost had the appointment until they heard this story and one therapist changed her mind about me. I don't blame her. So, I am not telling anyone about this. Will have to be careful and edit what I say going forward.
Will be seeing a new therapist next week. I'm sure one of the questions that comes up is do I dissociate. I'm afraid to tell the truth.
Birdie
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something my treatment providers told me...
getting a diagnosis of DID doesn't change anything other than names what has already been happening all my life time. so to figure out things that happen in my life about DID all I need to do is look at my past.
if I was confused that someone in my adult life was saying I was doing something I don't remember, all I needed to do was look at all those times through out my whole life time that this has already been happening. I grew up this way so it was just my normal way to be, why because DID isn't something that just popped on to me one day. it is something that I already had since before I was 5, just not diagnosed back then.
my suggestion is not to panic., look back on your whole life time's worth of times when people came to you and said you did things you don't remember doing and you may find that this is just normal way that you have always been since the very first trauma in your very early childhood before age 5 that caused you to have alternate personalities.