I'm on hyper alert for anything my T does, whether that be yawn, glancing at her watch or anything that suggests she might be losing interest in me. One thing I have realised about myself is that these days I'm tempted to mention it, whereas in the past with other Ts I've always been too scared to say anything because I didn't believe my feelings mattered. I think being able to say something now is partly due to personal growth on my part and partly due to having a really safe T. My T wasn't looking and sounding well a few weeks ago and I asked her if she had a virus. She immediately answered me and I was able to discuss my anxieties about her health.

I think that anything like a yawn or indeed anything that bothers you about a T in session, is therapy fodder. More often than not it's simple tiredness on the T's part, but it's important to say how it feels if it's bothering you. I never could on so many occasions and I was left feeling scared that the T was not really paying attention to me.