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As for crying, I wasn't really allowed to cry as a child, was punished for it at times and expected to keep my emotions--sadness, anger, etc.--inside. So the fact that I can express them to T is saying something. And I'm able to express anger and hurt toward him like I have to no one else. That contributes to why I want to keep working with him, because I can let those emotions out there. I know you may be reading my writeup and thinking "But she's not really letting them out" or "She still seems afraid of expressing herself." But for me...that's progress. Trust me. And I'm doing that more in my outside life, too. To the level that a few people have commented on how I've changed. So I feel this T is helping me. Because I can look at how I was 2 years ago vs. now, and it's a big difference. I still have a ways to go, but I'm moving in the right direction (taking steps back along the way, but who doesn't?)