I'm so sorry you're feeling so sad, @raging vortex!! Feel free to PM me ANYTIME when you need some comfort, ok? Same goes for EVERYONE else as well of course! I understand why you'd all miss mania as there are DEFINITELY good sides to it - at least in the beginning! I hope you'll ALL be able to find some Peace and Hope! Please NEVER give up hope! It does get easier after a while! I'm SURE of that! PLEASE DO KEEP FIGHTING! Sending many safe, warm hugs to YOU, @raging vortex, ALL of You, your Families, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones!!