I've been seeing my therapist for a couple of months and I do really like him. However my own paranoia can't get passed the fact that I think he doesn't like me, he is bored of me and wants rid of me. I get it in to my head he finds me frustrating and annoying. He never disagrees when I say anything negative about myself. But he is also patient and constantly reassures me he won't abandon me.
I went to see him on Friday and came out feeling really disappointed and like the session was a waste of time. I felt like he was trying to get me out of his office as quick as possible. So on Sunday I sent him an email telling him I was quitting. Part of our therapy agreement was that if I was to end therapy then it had to be discussed in sessions so I was a bit surprised and hurt when I got an email back just saying 'ok no worries, thanks for letting me know.' It seemed to confirm my thoughts that he didn't actually care about me.
But now I'm beginning to regret quitting and don't know what to do. Do I email him again and say actually I don't want to quit or do I just try to walk away and not contact him again? I'm so confused.