Hi Alpha. It's nice to see you back! I'm sorry to read that you are struggling with your bp illness and drinking. I do hope you can arrest the excess drinking. I know from a lot of experience that it does more harm than good, even if it seems otherwise, at times.

That is unfair that the VA doesn't set you up with adequate therapy. Have you tried support groups (like DBSA, particularly, or NAMI)? I know AA isn't for everyone, but it helps some. It's my assumption (correct me if I'm wrong) that you bp is the root issue. Do you drink a lot even when stable mood-wise?