A lot is going on in my life right now. H still finding his way at his job as he got a director position of a new makerspace (giant and quite impressive) but he has zero budget to buy basic materials and tools for the students to work with.

Looking into moving into Beaumont (farther from Houston than we are now), but the school ratings there suck. You can move into a small outside town with better schools, but then you are isolated, and H would be looking at up to a 45 min. commute vs. the 1.5 hr. commute he has now, which is still long. If we're going to uproot we have to accept we may have to find the money to send my daughter (6th grade) to private school or homeschool her. We need to look at more houses. We were looking at the outlying areas so much, we stopped focusing on Beaumont. H's job is in Beaumont, and if we are moving to be closer to his job, we really should have him closer to his work. You can't put a value on the time he would have to spend with our daughter vs. being so worn out from the day and drive, he just wants to sleep.

Right now, I am so not feeling real life. I just want to retreat. Don't want to cook, do laundry, plan meals, do dishes, yardwork, housework, take care of the cats.

I am spending a lot of time losing myself in mindless games, online searches that keep going as I think of thing after thing to search, different websites to go to, sometimes reading (concentration is hard), things like thinking of couponing and spending ages on it but not doing it, wasting time with this & that (iPhone that won't sync to fitbit or something, always I have electronics issues), messing with Spotify, writing posts right now when I need breakfast.

Time just goes, and I don't have anything to show for it. Often, I will think back to what I did that took 2 hr. and can't come up with any good reason why it took that long.

My brain is a mess