Yes, I'm sure you're not alone in this, @Molotov720!! I COMPLETELY agree with EVERYTHING that BethRags has already wisely said BETTER THAN I EVER COULD! I'd urge you to see a professional as soon as you possibly can before things escalate and get worse. Your health is important and YOU MATTER! Thinga may seem scary but with the right treatment and the right Meds Combo you'll start to feel better. Have Faith! Keep us updated if you want to and Please DO seek help! YOU DESERVE TO GET BETTER! THAT'S A PROMISE! I hope you have someone supporting you IRL! In any case, we'll be here for you cheering you on and supporting you! THAT'S A PROMISE! KEEP FIGHTING! Feel free to PM me ANYTIME when you need Advice and Support! I'm SURE plenty of others will gladly care about you and listen to you when you need help the most as well! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Molotov720, and ALL of your Loved Ones!!