I totally understand. It is a vicious cycle of eating, then feeling guilty, then eating some more because of the guilt.
I deal with the same thing, it's all mental and people eat to escape some type of pain or problem. If you examine your life, you'll probably be able to see where this all started and why you medicate with food.
For me, it's wanting to be loved, it's anxiety, and depression. I know when I was truly happy in my life....food was not nearly as important, and I would lose all the extra weight.
You can PM anytime if you need to talk. Take care and just take it one day at a time!!!