Hi,
I think you're right, you're sort of telling yourself to calm down. I dont have info about meds, but I'll try to see if I can be at all soothing. It seems like you're doing all you can at the present, if you make no sudden changes with any meds, and even, I'd think that eventually, if therapy does its job, you can come off the meds altogether. Actually, I just finished reading a chapter on bipolar as compared to personality disorder. The bipolar is a chemical thing, but the disorders are more emotionally based, thats as I understand. But then, of course emotions affect us physically too, and chemically. If instinctively you dont feel you're bipolar, then trust you instinct.
did you consider giving that phone no a ring?

riverx