I always prepare notes before sessions.


Well last session i had to deal with a rupture with my therapist where I revealed a trauma and I interpreted his response as blase, and like he tried to minimize it. It ended up being that he simply wasn't sure how to navigate the situation.


I Don't blame him. I have unique sensitivities.


Anyway, I during our last session we discussed that experience and then I told him that I had prepared to lay out for him, what the trauma experience really meant to me, how I think it affected me long term and other details surrounding it. This includes a lot of sexual trauma, copious amounts of shame and humiliation, false beliefs, just so many deep layers.

I have it all written out and I get overwhelmed just sitting here trying to read it I am getting terribly anxious about my session tomorrow. Not sure how I will get through all this with him!!

I have not, as of yet, really lost myself emotionally in therapy, I am terrified to! I fear all this heavy stuff is going to sweep me away!

Advice? Encouragement? Discouragement? I need something! Oh dear sweet Jesus!