Yeah I feel bitter and will be walking away from her. I've felt nothing but anger for a LONG time and I do resent the attention he gets while I get nothing, probably because I am nothing but that's a whole different story.

I've never actually been honest with her about things, I just hold it in because I figure if I am even a little bit honest she will be annoyed and that will be the end of that. She told me that day we last saw eachother that she does not want the money to get in the way between us and that I am probably really angry sometimes about this taking so long (I just smiled, not saying a word), but there is a problem and the only way I can be free is if I vanish and move on. I aint going to let it corrupt me and I become some asshole to everyone, I am what I am. I honestly didn't do this because I was hoping she would become my girlfriend, I truely cared about her well being and I told her I wanted her to get away from work and heal up, I mean she had 2 blood clots and had to be on blood thinners and later a gallstone problem, I just wanted to help her out and make sure she was going to be ok.

But she has other obligations she's paying for that are apparently more important then paying back someone that truely at the time cared for her well being. Like saving money so she can move away to buy some land and make a house. At that point I knew I have been an utter fool and have been for years. I did not even hint at her for the money back for a looooooong time, first time was October 2018 and then once after that because she mentioned it. I understand she needs to survive and the money I may not see and i've never once rushed her for it, i've even told her to keep it if she has to or take your time paying me back because she tells me she has money only for food after the bills and rent. And no I don't wish her and the boyfriend a short relationship and hope they break up, that's just dumb. I wish them a happy and long lasting relationship, she's happy with him but I really don't like how since the moment they looked eachother in the eyes and fell in love at that moment (she says it feels like she's home with him, love at first sight) he's had much more time with her in the first month then our entire 3 years we have been talking once she quit at my job, which in the 12 or so years we worked together we barely talked. I also can't take her lies, is anything real that she tells me? I tell her to call me, she doesn't. She says she will call, she doesn't. She says she wants to hang out more, we don't. She wants to invite me to things with her, she doesn't. It is what it is and what it is is it isn't.

Anyway I don't really think about her much, I just keep this thread updated on what's happening. I don't think there is a point in continuing this thread anymore, i'm done with this woman and wont be responding to her anymore. Good luck to you Rose and thanks for the help and advice. Oh and BTW I gave her $4,000 in total. She paid $2,000 when she sold her house after she paid off all her bills, then $150 for a life coach, then 1000 when we last hung out, so it's down to $850 now.