Oh love, dont homeschool. I was a third grade teacher. I have no doubt you could do it,but you don’t need the stress. Because you and I have mixed states I read all your posts, so I know how much you struggle.
I think you have cptsd from your father as well as ptsd from that salon incident.
A doctor in Chicago(Lipov) is giving injections for ptsd. It’s called SGB, originally a shot for pain.He is having good success rates and Im sure other pain docs will start doing this for ptsd. I would still call it cutting edge however.
I agree you shouldn’t worry about vegging out sometimes. You mind is still processing the transition ahead and incubating ideas. Sometimes I get ideas when I take an extended break that I dont have if I just keep on trying to figure things out.