Sorry, I didn't mean to scare anybody. I'm not feeling depressed right now or suicidal. I'm on fairly high dosages of Ads and they usually work pretty good. I also have a friend who is really good at pulling me up from the abyss. I wasn't questioning my meds per se, just wondering why most mood stabilizers seem to concentrate on the manic/hypomanic end of the spectrum as opposed to the depression end as well as pdocs doing the same. I'm being treated for both but I prefer most of my treatment to be for the depression because it is so much harder to handle. I seem to be doing much better lately even though I'm still very much rapid cycling several times a day. My cycles are very easily triggered but I'm doing fine. Thanks everybody for all your concern, very much appreciated.