I’m not sure what’s going on, but for the past few months therapy has felt different. When I go, I don’t want to talk about anything. The whole time I feel like leaving. I feel upset with him for no reason. It’s pretty strange.
It feels different than just wanting to push him away, but I totally do that too.

Early this morning I emailed asking for an extra session this week because I’ve been having really bad flashbacks. He replied with a time he could see me tomorrow, and I responded saying I wasn’t sure I could handle it and I might have to go to the hospital. He then offered me a late session or phone call tonight, but I never emailed back declining or accepting anything he offered, because one moment I really want to go and the next moment I never want to go again.
Wtf is wrong with me right now? Why am I feeling like this?