hi. I'm looking for support from people who understand. I restarted lithium last night after a 4 year period of stability. For all four years I had no episodes and was taking no medications, I was able to handle mind mood symptoms through luck and consistent self care. In the past 5 weeks I've totally fallen apart into a depressive episode that nothing is helping. I know the meds will, so I have that at least.

I'm struggling to accept that I'm sick and might always be on the verge of getting sick. It sucks that even after all that time spent on my mental health and well being I'm back where I started, again. It feels like my parole from mental illness has been revoked. And now that I've had another episode I really can;t deny being sick, and I know it is going to happen again.

How do you guys deal knowing there is probably always going to be another episode? I'm struggling.