I am sorry you are dealing with feeling like this. I can kind of relate to realizing "hmm my thinking is really off and not rational all of a sudden". That actually is how I experienced the accumulation of stress and resulting mood issues I experienced a couple of years ago. I am glad your pdoc called and I hope the medication helps. That's great you were self aware enough to ask for help. I can see why that would be a pretty big loss if your pdoc retired. I hope he is not going to any time soon.