last time i went to therapy i was kinda thinking on the way... and i realized that i was feeling a little resentful? that i had to walk so far and then bus so far and then hang around so much... in both directions... when i go see my therapist. i guess i kinda caught myself thinking 'i'm not really looking forward to this today. maybe... :-O i'm actually starting to desire to have less therapy sessions :-O. maybe... i actually would like a bit of a break... so i can focus on my work and not have the disruption of taking two half days a week off :-O'

astounding. i didn't tell him this. we had a pretty good session. it was nice to see him. i'm glad i went. but it was weird that i was thinking that on the way in...

and as it happened that last session was the monday before easter. so we didn't have our friday session. and we didn't have our monday session. and so i'll see him this friday (tomorrow) but it has been a little while since i saw him last. and... i would like to go in to see him tomorrow, yeah.

but that was weird. maybe... it was a coping strategy because i knew of the upcoming break... or maybe... i am feeling stronger (genuinely so).

maybe...