Sorry I didn't see this earlier, BirdDancer. It seems like you're everything in your power to fight back. That's WONDERFUL! Be proud of yourself for that. I hope things will improve soon. Take care of yourself. Reach out for help. We'll be here for you when you need support. I'm REALLY HAPPY that your Pdoc and your Husband are being supportive of you! It's good when we can rely on other people as well. Please be kind to yourself. We're cheering you on! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, BirdDancer, your Family, your Friend, your Pdoc and ALL of your Loved Ones!