Thanks for all the quick feedback, After posting I realised that I was more seeking to wite that down somewhere. Hopefully now ill stop having that discussion with my inner therapist as hes rather boring.
Though i'm also curious as to wether or not this is schozophrenia, (note i have other symptoms ive neglected to post, i have them all written somewhere as its quite a few).
As for the seeking of help, (ive yet to look at the links yet as im a bit pressed for time now, but I'll get to it.)
My only major concern now is my concentration, id prefer to avoid medication, as its somewhat against my personal philosophy. But if I could find a way to focus better, I dont think id have any problems living with schozophrenia, or whatever i may have, as long as i can care for myself.
I seem to find most of my symptoms (now that im not delusional) rather constructive, as when I get racing thoughts, I'm suddenly more aware and more coordinated, everything seems more clear liek im overly concious, which makes me better at a few things. Ive also found that working out when im liek that seems to burn off the feeling and keep me stable for much longer. Though ive recently hurt my arm and can't, so that may explain the worsening lately.
I seem to be rambling so ill stop. Thanks again and goodnight.