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NotForMe · Aug 15, 2019, 11:50 AM

Hi, new here and looking for support. I am someone who has managed to "trap" themselves in a very crazy-making relationship. The person I am in this with has BPD, PTSD, and also has Narcissistic tendencies. They have been diagnosed by a psychiatrist and a psychologist. Thank god, I thought I was losing my mind! Come to find out they are the reason!

However, it hasn't done much good for them to get diagnosed when they are in DENIAL every other day! "On I know I did that, or said that, I'm sorry" also, the violence and physical abuse towards me, the cops being called on me, the suicidal threats and 911 ....Tired of up and down, around and around behavior from them!!! I want OUT. I'm sick of this crazy, crappy, scary, and Insane 5 year relationship...how could I have let it go on for so long?? Easy. Read up on BPD. They are great manipulators and liars.

I don't put all the blame on them, I know I am a great "care giver" and have my own issues with "saving" people. So now that I know all of this...I want my life back. Anyone reading this that is a "NON" BPD person...in other words, you don't have it..they do...and you can relate, I'm sorry for you too. I hear most people never leave them. I'm getting up in years and I don't want to waste anymore of my life trying to fix them! They don't want help, and they will never "be cured" from it. The best I could hope for is having a little bit smoother life, MAYBE after years of them going to counseling...but BPD doesn't go away.

So basically I'm here to vent and help myself get stronger. Therapy, reading about these disorders and reading your posts here. Lots of work on ME. Thanks for the support. Sometimes all we need is an ear to listen. Thanks