Hi mickey, im sorry to hear that u feeling depressed, i wish there was an easy way to get rid of all our negative emotions but that aint reality, the thing that IS reality is that we all care about you and none of us wanna see you suffer that way, u are a very special caring person and u deserve all the love u get, dont be hard on your self, you are so young and kind and im sure you'll find your space in the world, sending many hugs