Thanks for all your help. It’s hard because my girlfriend is long distance, and i’ve cheated with her on other women in the past. I feel like it’s also matriculated into HOCD and it’s horrible.

I feel like my tocd as a whole is getting worse as well. I feel so withdrawn and don’t know what’s real or what’s not. i have trouble sleeping and i’m so worried i have a hidden desire to be trans gender. I’ve never been worried about how my voice sounds and now i’ve been paying so much attention to it. My body feels so out of place like i feel uncomfortable. My mind thinks about this 24/7 and i can’t get it out of my head. I just want to feel like i did before all this, a couple weeks before my girlfriend left for home. When she was here my intrusive thoughts stopped for the most part until a couple of days before she left.

Any ideas? Could i possibly be trans? I don’t want to be trans at all I like being a man but i’ve found i can’t find joy in anything i liked before and it’s sickening.

Have any of you gotten help? What should i do?