Hi, I’m sixteen and I’m in college. For the last 3-4 years I've had almost no relations with other people at my age. It really drives me crazy and deppresed, but I feel it can't be helped. At some point in my life I started avoiding other people because of my horrible awkardness while talking. I started to be much intimidated while in conversation with someone. It feels like I've lost my personality. I used to be a very confident, out-going type of person, maybe even funny. It could have been while becoming a teenager (I mean growing up) when I lost my way of being. People started dating girls, hanging around in groups and I felt I didn't belong to them (not to mention I was never invited). As I started secondary school I was an outsider in class, though I attempted to gain a bit of attention. It resulted in temporary acceptance in the group and ended with me being humiliated. I started studying in college one year ago and my social problems overwhelmed me - I didnt get on with almost anyone, started stattering, sweating and fell into complete isolation. I went to a psycholog once and he offered me group therapy. I must say I don't see it'll work but will try anything. What is also worth noting is that I absolutely hate they way my voice sounds and my pathetic (and rare) attemtps to talk to someone. I sometimes feel suicidal, but I'll never harm myself (simple cowardice).
May someone who's experienced somethimg simillar tell me how to overcome it and is it very hard? And in the first place - how to fight constant stress and worry about my situation and self-disgust?