I am DEEPLY SORRY, @MaroonAbalone! It does seem like a REALLY difficult situation. Yes, unfortunately people who don't have depression have an hard time fully understanding it. Moving in with your friends seems like the wisest choice to me. Hopefully that will give you some Peace and you'll start feeling better soon. Please NEVER give up Hope! Your Life is important and you know that. I'm also DEEPLY SORRY for what happened with your brother. I'm so sorry things are being so hard in general. Definitely get away from them as soon as you can. You're doing the right thing for yourself and for your own Mental Health. Please be kind to yourself. Feel free to PM me ANYTIME whenever you wish to talk about this or anything that is on your Mind. I'm SURE PLENTY of others will gladly help you and listen to you as well. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH You, @MaroonAbalone, and ALL Of Your Friends and Loved Ones! I am SO SORRY that you're hurting SO MUCH!