Okay so I'm starring to believe my bipolar diagnosis (bipolar 2, rapid cycling perhaps). I've been mildly depressed with periods of mild hypomania for years, but a combination of a light box, jet lag, and some life stress early this year put me into a hypomanic/mixed state, followed by depression.

In hindsight whenever I drink alcohol now I go hypomanic for about 24 hours, the crash and. Last weekend I drank on the ami and I went really hyper - read excessive confidence and hypersexuality. I gradually fell back down and by Thurs I was feeling very down. But now I'm starting to recover again (or am I coming back up?!).

I'm currently on 100mg amitriptyline and 600mg lithium. What I can't fathom is whether the improvement in my mood is towards hypomania or whether I'm recovering from the depression. So basically am I getting better or am I just making my illness worse down the line?