Please don't be sorry I'm going through this. I don't see it as a bad thing. It is what it is. Mainly impart because of me reducing my sessions after 16yrs.

You know, today I asked my almost 3yr old grandson if he likes cuddles?
He replied "yes! Too much"

No shame attached to it. He simply stateted what he likes and how much.

That's how I feel. Being with T for me is life a giant cuddle. I love them. From her metaphorical speaking of course.

No shame. She's away for 5 weeks. I will miss that feeling I get when I'm with her - too much.