Not today

I crumble
I fall apart
I am not strong, when there is stress
The world and /or the people in it kick us down...

I become primal
I dissolve and pain takes over
I take myself down
Until I hit the bottom....

I still have not learnt to catch myself
It takes time to find the strength to get back up
My emotions are too strong
And too painful....

I feel ashamed
I have those thoughts we should not have
I cannot move
And yet I cannot be still....

I really hate ugly days.

Much loving kindness to all on the bus