I've calmed down a lot. I still wish my pdoc wasn't on this planet because I KNOW she has done nothing but hurt others when they are already hurting. I see my t this week and I'm going to tell her I want a different pdoc even if they suck too. If she asks why, I'll be honest. I'll probably fly off the handle, but I'll be honest. Maybe that'll be a good intro to "I need to work on my anger issues," and if she can't help me with that, I'll ask for a new t too.